so far, so good

So far, so good. As my first week of "real" work comes to a close, I gotta say, I couldn't be happier with how things are turning out. Obviously, my life in general is not fantastic, but given the circumstances, things are shaping up nicely, and I feel good about the direction I am headed. Yesterday when I dropped the Pea off at school she said goodbye, blew me a kiss and I was off. No tears from either one of us. I finally have an official job title and description, and am starting to feel useful.

I ran into an acquaintance from the club last night at a bar...planned on going to yoga, somehow ended up there...best laid plans...anyhoo, he asked me how I was doing and if I was happy, and I could honestly answer that I am doing well, and yes, happy. I still have my moments obviously, and as the weeks wear on and the novelty of the newness wears off I know I will have some bad days, but I at least feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am not so damn mad at DH all the time, and there has been less sadness and melancholy as of late.

I miss the Pea, gotta say that's the one thing I wish I could change. I wish there was a way to spend more time with her. Night before last when I picked her up we had only enough time to eat a quick dinner and then get ready for bed. We still had our snuggle time and read books, but it seemed very rushed, and then before I knew it, it was morning again and she was gone, and I was off. I am looking forward to having the next three days with her to catch up and reconnect.

Well, as I am enjoying the job and want to keep it, I better get to it...