peeing in cars

The Pea thinks I peed in the car and that's why we had to get a new one...Friday, when my gfriend came to pick us up and take us to get the rental, the first words out of the Pea's mouth were, "mommy peed in the car" at the time I was like "WHAT? huh?"...yesterday afternoon I finally figured it out (I'm quick like that)...I told her I "had an accident" and well in her world that means I pissed myself and by adding the "in the car" well, that means I did it in the car...tee hee.

So yeah, I had an accident, and it was all my fault, and if that isn't a big fat wake up call I don't know what is...see I had been in a funk, feeling sorry for myself, driving distracted and wham! I guess it is time to make some changes...I guess it is time to grow up, and get over myself and stop being distracted. I am a big fan of "living in the moment" enjoying the present, not dwelling in the past or dreaming of the future, and yet while a fan, I have yet to become a TRUE convert. Oh, I have my days, where I am all happy and glorious and able to enjoy every moment, but it's not often, and there I was, driving down the road, lost in a thought, not paying attention, NOT living in the moment, and now I am gonna pay for it...I am damn lucky I didn't hurt myself, or anyone else.

I tried to take down the Christmas tree this morning and the Pea LOST HER MIND...she did not want it taken down and could not understand why it had to be (I hope to get it done tonight after she goes to bed). She kept asking "Why? Why mommy, why?"...all I could think to say was "I don't want to be one of those tacky, crazy ladies who keeps a tree up all year long." I didn't say it to be funny, but she laughed and said "You tacky mommy, you funny!" I don't want to be tacky! Funny, yes...tacky, crazy? NO!! What is this life of mine coming to? Alone, exhausted, distracted, and now tacky too? I can't have that! Yikes...

Hmm, well at least I made it through the day without pissing in the rental.