happy new year!

Wow...so it has been a wicked long time since I wrote last...so much has happened. The trip up north to see Smash and the boys and the rest of the family was GREAT...we had so much fun, the Pea got to see, and play in, the snow and I got my batteries recharged. There are a few places I go to recharge, regroup, and bolster myself and that is one of them...NYC and the beach are the others...something about the energy and the ability to be anonymous. No one knows me up there, I don't feel like I have to DO anything or be anywhere, and it is beautiful...anyway.

I was supposed to come home New Year's Eve...I had planned to get in about 11:30pm, my hope was that I would be so busy trying to get off the plane and get a cab and the Pea would be so cranky that the LAST thing on my mind would be the fact that I was ringing in the new year alone and with no one to kiss. Well...best laid plans...mother nature decided I was NOT getting home and dumped over a foot of snow on the airport that day. At first I was bummed, my plans were screwed up, I wouldn't have a day to rest before going back to work, and my sister would have to change her plans and babysit me...as the night wore on though, I realized that the snowstorm was an unexpected blessing...everything worked out even better than planned.

There is a saying that whatever you are doing as you ring in the new year is how you will you spend the rest of your year. Well for the most part that has been true for me...years I spent ringing in the new year at home, mellow, the year pretty much was as well...years there was chaos and drama as the ball dropped, well chaos and drama the whole year through...last year I was writing in my journal, alone in the guest room of my house, my life and marriage a mess. Well, as the year wore on, it became clear that I would spend the year alone, writing to help me cope, and yes, my life and marriage a mess. This year, much to my surprise, I ushered in the new year laughing, happy and with the people I love the most.

I can only hope the rest of my year is spent much the same...filled with unexpected blessings, laughter, love and happiness.

Happy New Year!