cougartown

Had a busy weekend and never got a chance to write, and then was planning on writing before the game last night, but it just didn't happen...oh well. So the weekend went well, had a nice Friday with Mom, did lunch, pedis, and some shopping and then home. Watched a movie: Sunshine Cleaning, highly recommend. I thought it was awesome...mom thought it was OK. Saturday we did the outdoor festival thing, which is always way more crowded and a lot less fun than you think it will be going into it. It didn't help it got hot, really hot, and we were dressed for not hot...uck, by the time we got to the car to go home we were all sweaty and tired and cranky. Saturday night mom watched the Pea for me so I could go to a party with Philly.

The party itself was great...good people, good food, lots of booze...it made me feel a bit old, however. See, the party was a 30th birthday and I was the OLDEST person there. Most of my friends are nearing 40 (and more) and 30 seems so long ago...when they brought out the cake and I saw the numbers, and a discussion was had about how he was "the old man" there, I snuck out the back door to get some air in hopes the age discussion wouldn't turn my way. I try not to think about the fact that Philly is nearly 10 years my junior, cuz then it makes me crazy, but sometimes I just can't help it. For the most part the age thing doesn't bother me, and is not a factor in the relationship, but every once in awhile I get smacked in the face with reality and I get to thinking.

The fact that "cougars" are all the rage in the media right now doesn't help. Have ya seen Cougartown with Courtney Cox? It is on Wednesday nights...I watched the premier cuz I was told I HAD to (around the workplace they have taken to calling me "cougette") and while it was fun and kinda funny, I wasn't all that impressed. It definitely hit on some of the not so fun aspects of being a new single mom, and still feeling young but not necessarily perceived as such, especially by single men, but it was a little hokey and predictable. Anyway, the second episode, which I didn't watch but heard about the next day, was partly about her secret beauty routines. Apparently she was getting up an hour before her new younger man to do her hair and makeup and then getting back into bed and "waking up" with him, all so he wouldn't ever see her "real" 40 year old face. Well, let me say for the record I am just too damn lazy and like my sleep too damn much to ever do that, but I can certainly understand wanting to. The thought has crossed my mind, more than once, that if Philly sees me in the morning, takes a look at me in that bright morning light, no makeup, hair a mess...sees my wrinkles, age spots, and grey hair...he will realize I am old, and wonder what the hell he is doing. He assures me this will never happen, but it doesn't stop me from thinking about it, and probably one of the reasons I am holding back and not letting the relationship progress.

Don't know what the episode tomorrow night is about, or if I will have a chance to see it, but since everyone else seems to think I can identify with the character I am sure I will hear about it. Of course, the fact that I don't actually identify with, or see myself anything like, the character in Cougartown is irrelevant...I see myself like and can identify with, FAR BETTER, the character in Sunshine Cleaning...but if everyone else wants to think I am sexy, fabulous, have my shit together, and can "snag" a younger man...uh, sure...ok.