swf seeks adventure

One of my boys, Grey, is headed out of town on an "adventure" and is the usual custom whenever one of the guys will be gone for awhile, we took him out last night for dinner and a few brews. Well, turns out silly me had locked her keys in her car and couldn't leave, so Grey hung out with me while we waited for the locksmith. We sat in the parking lot, on the tailgate of his truck, talking about his upcoming trip, travel in general, and life. Not only do most of the people I work with travel on a regular basis, but so do most all my other friends. One of my girlfriends is gone more than she is home, another gets to go off on occasion, and it seems almost daily one of my acquaintances is updating their Facebook status with an "I'm off to..." I am jealous. I miss seeing new places, new faces, and experiencing new things. Last night, once I finally got into my car and was able to head home, my mind was racing.

I was up most of the night, tossing and turning and thinking...today I am antsy. I don't want to run away, but I don't want to spend the rest of my life tied to a desk either. There are so many places I want to see, things I want to experience, foods I want to try. I read the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert last year, and for those who haven't heard of it, or read it, is about her search for herself, and love, after the breakup of her marriage. Gilbert goes to Italy, India, and Indonesia and writes about the food, her experiences, her struggles, and her lovers...I want to be her. Well, ok not really, cuz I kinda like myself now, but you know what I mean, right? To be able to travel the world... seeing, feeling, tasting, loving, and then writing about it...wow. I don't see any way to ACTUALLY do it, as toting along a 3 year old would be somewhat problematic, but I still WANT to, and for the last 12 hours or so I have thought a lot about what I want my life to be like in the future. I guess my spring break is coming to a close...it's funny how something random (and slightly annoying) like locking your keys in your car can end up being a "moment" in your life. As we talked last night about where we saw ourselves a few years down the road, I had to stop and think about it...I have been so focused on just getting by and getting through each day, I haven't thought much about it lately. This past year has been so much about surviving and healing and working on making myself the best me I can be that I have chosen NOT to think about some of my future dreams. I have made a conscious effort to NOT plan, since all my "life" plans blew up in my face, but NOW, now I think it is time. I still want to be able to enjoy my moments while I am in them, and not dwell too much on what the future will bring, or think about how my past has been less than ideal, but if I just keep doing what I have been doing, I will just end up staying right where I am.

I am ready to shake things up a bit...any suggestions?