finally

I finally fell apart, had my breakdown, lost the show...yup, apparently I had enough done on my to do list I allowed myself the luxury. I had an appointment with MiMi, I walked in, sat down, she said "How ya doin'?" and I started crying, and then sobbing and then outta control for like 15minutes ugly cry...I haven't cried like that - EVER. I am so thankful I had her and had that session yesterday, because I don't think I would have allowed myself to do it otherwise, and boy did I need it.

The Pea is getting better too...yesterday she actually wanted to come home, to here, to the "new house" and when we got here she was happy...didn't hurt we had ducks in the yard and she got to feed them, that child loves the ducks. We are settling in here, and starting our own, new, routines, and it feels really good.

So today, golf - yey! I am looking forward to playing, matter of fact I should be getting ready not typing, but oh well. So yesterday when I went to the driving range a friends bfriend was there - who just happens to be a golf pro -and I ended up getting what amounted to a free lesson. I was hitting the ball GREAT, now whether or not I can continue that today remains to be seen, but man it felt good to smash the ball again.

Well since I really do have to start getting ready I'm signing off...