match.yuck part 2

Booya gave me a good ol' verbal slap last night and told me, in no uncertain terms, to GET MY HEAD OUTTA MY ASS. Or something like that anyway...he told me one: that saying straight up "hey, I like you" is not a bad thing and if he runs, well f*ck him, (which made me think of a previous post about growing she-balls and just saying what is on your mind instead of being so damn scared: http://crazyincarolina.blogspot.com/2009/05/writing-out-loud.html) and two: that I am supposed to be having fun with this Match thing and either do it or not, but stop agonizing cuz that is just dumb. Well, he is right OF COURSE (damnit) so after sending Coach a quick email letting him know that I DID in fact like him, and wanted to see more of him (without the "do you like me circle one") I started returning emails, accepted another date (although just coffee cuz I am still feeling a bit whorish about the whole deal) and checking out my matches.

I'm all feeling good, thinkin' I can do this, happy single girl, and decide to check out the "who has made you a favorite." For those of you not familiar, there are a couple of things you can do when looking at a profile page of a perspective match. You can wink at them, send them an email, or make them a favorite, or any combination. I have winked at 17 guys, emailed or returned emails of 10 or so, and made Coach a favorite. Now, I know everyone probably uses the system differently, some probably send out 17 winks a day, some don't at all. I am sure some use the favorite option while searching to remind themselves later to go back and email. In my mind a favorite means something, has some significance...I am sure that is not the case for everyone, BUT here is where it gets weird for me. I am thinking when I click on the "who has made you a favorite" button that the 8 guys who have will be ones that I have had some sort of connection with...NOPE. 3 of them emailed me and I specifically said "no thanks" in one case the dude was married, MARRIED and wanted to know if I would be interested IF he left his wife. First of all: eew...you don't effing know me, WTF is wrong with you, second: WTF is wrong with you!!!

Ok, so the other 5 guys have either emailed and I haven't responded or they have done NOTHING. Well, that just smacks of creepy to me. You have viewed my profile (in one case a BUNCH of times), do something, don't just keep looking at me. Although, since I am now skeeved, good luck. On the other hand neither of the guys I went out with, and none of the other ones I have had email conversations with, have made me a favorite...seriously messes with the mind, and now I am right back where I started at the beginning of the night. I wish they didn't even have that option, cuz of course now I am gonna keep checking it, and if the ones I WANT to don't, I will be bummed, and if the creeptacular dudes keep it up, I am finally just gonna get fed up and delete my profile altogether.

As much as I am "one of the guys" this Match thing is one arena I am officially all girl...I can't seem to check my estrogen at the door and jump in like Booya has, having all sorts of fun and talking to all sorts of people. I am struggling to not take anything personally, reject those that I don't want anything to do with, and not get a little jealous of those that I do, knowing they are out there going on a bunch of dates and getting a bunch of winks and emails. I wonder if the other girls on there have experienced and had the same thoughts and concerns as I have...I wonder if it goes away after you have been doing it awhile?

I wonder if after reading this post Booya will want to real live slap me upside the head...of course I would have to get it outta my ass, and apparently that hasn't happened yet.