baby broyer anyone?

Yesterday the Pea asked for a baby brother. Well a "baby broyer" to be exact...a friend of mine who has a little one the same age as the Pea recently had another and we got the announcement in the mail. When I exclaimed "Oh look sweetie! It's T's baby brother!" She said she wanted one too. Perfect timing...nice.

Well I went on to explain to the Pea that brothers were not something you simply put in your order for, it was a little more complicated...

her: why?
me: it just isn't that simple honey...
her: why?
me: good question...
her: why?
me: honey please stop asking why
her: why?

It got me thinking about it though...having another. After the Pea was born I wanted another one right away...literally the moment she was born, after I said "OMG she is sooo tiny!" I said "Let's have another one." Well of course everyone in the room laughed, but I wasn't kidding, I meant it. I figured why not, body is all f*cked up, I'm in prego mode, lets get this show on the road now, why wait the requisite 2 yrs? Well, after a few months of no sleep and DH pretty much refusing to consider it, the maternity insurance was canceled and that was that. Hindsight being what it is, obviously a good move...but now?

Do I open myself up to the possibility again, do I even allow myself to think about it with someone else? I know I probably shouldn't even be thinking about it, since I have so much else on my plate right now, and have no idea what or who the future will bring me, but I can't help it...now that things have changed, maybe it IS a possibility...or maybe I need to stop thinking and buy the Pea a baby doll.